a day in the life..

im currently writing my first college essay.

an argumentative essay on why skateboarding should be allowed on campus

college is crackin

goodbye..


goodbye home
goodbye room
goodbye meridien
goodbye union city
goodbye family
goodbye high school
goodbye friends.

good memories stay with me....

tomorrow. i am moving into my dorm at sjsu..

bittersweet.

move in day
Sunday August 19th

In 16 days i will be moving from the home in union city to my new
dorm room in san jose. washburn chea. anyway life is definitely
gonnna be really different. not having to answer to someone when
i come and go. not being forced to come home at a specific time.
no one to disappoint when i dont take out the trash lol. but yeah
college is gonna be fun i know it. i am hella lucky to be able to
dorm. kinna feel bad for those who arent dorming. but they are
welcome anytime. definitely excited to meet new people and go out
and make new friends. people who i can chilll with n hangout with n
add to my friends that i am already hella cool with. haha yeah who knows
maybe ill even meet my future wife in the near future. that would be
crazy and exciting. hahha well right now i am just going with the flow. no need to
think too hard into the future or about the past. basically just live it up.
moving on past all the high school drama n all that stuff and moving on
to adulthood and the real world somewhat. right now not really caring
about what other people think. what matters is what i think. n whats best
for me so life is gonna be good fasho. anyway besides that i am definitely
gonna miss all those people who made the last 4 years n basically my
childhood what it is. not seeing those people everyday is gonna be weird
but i think im ready for it. to be out on my own and to do my own thing.
even tho sj isnt even that far its still gonna be somewhat of a shock.
it hasnt hit me yet. but i know it will sometime within these 16 days.
and i wanna say have a nice life to all those people i may never
ever see again in my life. it prolly wont impact our lives that much
but its still kinda weird. and to those people who are my close friends.
even tho we say we'll keep in touch. we'll prolly get lost along the way
somehow. as much as i want to stay in touch with everyone. it prolly wont
happen that way. and for that i apologize. for not calling you up on the phone,
not leaving a myspace commment, or facebook  msg. and i really hope that
everyone is successful in everything that they do.  haha i know it seems like
its hella sad what im writing right now. like someone died or something
at least thats what it seems like to me. but anyway iwish the best of luck
to everyone.
i got my laptop. my new phone. and college in 16 days

call me. text me.

got a new phone
blackberry pearl

yay

in a month or two months for some.

we are gonna be in college.
PERIOD.

i worked out with my cousin.
i basically cant lift my arms anymore

With orientation less than 12 hours away.

i am hella excited. i think its gonna be hella fun.
meeting new people. making new friends. people that could potentially be some of my new friends. although its only a fraction of our class. and of the people who im gonna meet in college its gonna be crazy. living on campus is prolly the best thing to get the whole college experience. Not only is it the education of college but the lifestyle that seems so appealing and exciting to me right now. hmmm i hella lost my train of thought tho. distracted by AIM. haha hmmm prolly edit it later

waiting for the one who is gonna take the leap WITH me.

somewhat overwhelming

got my ps3
and resistance
holla if you wanna play with me

PSN ID: souleffecx

tryna cop a ps3!!!

need that paper

“What? You aren’t playing this year? Why not?” These are the three questions I heard most during the beginning of the winter sports season of my senior year of high school. Everyone who knew me would always ask me why I was not playing basketball this season especially since it was my senior year and would be on varsity. Basketball is something that I love and always have fun doing, so no one could understand my motives for not joining. I had a choice to make and had to sacrifice something I love for that choice. When time came to choose between school and basketball, school had to come first. This was not an easy decision for me as basketball is something that I have a passion for. Each year, with no questions asked, I play for my school team, but this year something changed. Basketball, a privilege, was beginning to conflict with my school tasks, something that had never occurred before. As newly elected senior class vice president I have more responsibilities that demand my attention and time such as attending weekly meetings, waking up early for seven in the morning leadership classes, and organizing and planning school events. Between school, basketball, and student government I had so much on my plate that something began to give and that was school. My grades slightly dropped from my parents standards, although academically eligible; they were still unacceptable. According to my parents, basketball season had not even started yet and I am already showing signs of slacking. I had to choose whether to continue playing basketball, while other aspects of school were neglected or to stop playing basketball and focus on school. I struggled with this decision for many days until I finally made my choice. I would miss everything about the game; especially the roaring crowds pounding their feet into the wood bleachers as we entered the gym, and the squeaks of our basketball shoes filling the air as we run through the plays. At first, I would always tell people that my parents were the reason I stopped playing, but that would be a lie. I lied because I thought people would not understand why I would give up something that I love just to focus on my school work. Although I wanted to play basketball I knew that the right choice was to focus on school. I decided to choose my future, my career, my education. I learned that I could focus more on my school work as well as contribute more to my position as vice president. By devoting more time to serving the student body, my class, and my school work, I could impact more people throughout the school community. Through contributing my time and effort I saw more benefits in the big picture rather than me just playing basketball. Basketball’s rewards would be temporary but the knowledge and leadership gained from student government would be beneficial and would carry on throughout my life. The skills learned throughout high school would help to propel me to be of greater service to myself as well as the community. Now as people pass me in the hallways and ask me “why?” I simply respond and say “school”. The answer is usually insufficient to most of the people who ask but I don’t expect all of them to understand. Making a sacrifice is not an easy thing to do especially when it’s something that you know and love. Although it kills me inside knowing that I won’t be able to step onto that court this season, I know that the contributions I can make off the court outweigh the contributions made on the court.

yeah i decided to make it friends only
not that any one reads my shit anyway
but yeah..
add me or msg me er somethin if you aint my friend yet

my body aches
not from training
but from the lack of love
exchanged between me and you



to act on impulse
and not question
holds ones true feelings
matters of the heart.

yeah ive decided to start writing little lines of poetry here and there whenever i have free time and what not. just like a 2 or 3 lines about anything. so yeah i got the idea from tabb so chyeah.


like a viral disease it kills me from the inside.
with no antibiotics to help.
i wait for it to pass through my system.

gov retreat was hella crazy. foreals though spending time with council and government was definitely hella fun. haha its funny how most of the time we are jus playing games n shit. but yeah im sad its over though. but itll be something i definitely wont forget. so many inside jokes ahh its gonna be funn looking back at everything. our council definitely got closer, stronger and more accustomed to working with each other. our teamwork just keeps getting better i would have to say. those cabins are fun though. seriously like 30 people in 1. haha nice. who knows what the future may bring.

gonna be gone until sunday. yup government retreat. hehe nice our council is hella cool though foreals. its bout to be hella fun i can feel it.
i am super excited.